=) Wo Xiang Tong le =)

Hope u guys are glad to see this ???

Hehe ... I am glad i've finally am able to say tat i really got over it liaoz

Wo Zhen de xiang tong le if u ppl still dont believe me ...

I've thought abt it long and hard , real long and real hard , ever since it started to bother me , i've not been the Isaac Xu Yanquan tat ppl know me for .

I've been miserable all this while , been whinin all this while , guess its time for a change , I've committed it to god , i've decided to let go and let god ...

But there is something i wanna say abt my previous post , i'll only let go if my buddy's the one who likes her. Not my buddy , No Way ...

Now i need to Seek Ye First , then will i deserve to talk terms with god haha...

Today was my last day of work , I work hard for sales today , got good results , was quite happy :)

I had some time today , i snap some artistic pictures of myself haha

I'm quite vain at times lol , but i have to say i look quite cool in the pics hehe.

I also took some pics of things tat i played a part in making it happen

I really like this pic haha , Artistic Pic in the Changing Room !!!



Close UP of my big face ( looks Quite Mafiaish )



The Records were my idea as a decoration for the store



I Fixed tat glass case in the shop !!! BBC and Vans were Suggested by me to be brought to the store ( BEST SELLERS )



Taken Jus b4 i left Far East today



I enjoyed every single sec of work in this humble little shop , though there were times when my boss will lecture me over some stuff , i'm glad he did , made me learn alot of stuff tat wil be useful being a person and working in the society in the near future .

Thank u Boss , God Bless Ur Business

Let God ...

Nothing really exciting happening in my life now , tml is my last day of work ... Its been a good employer and employee relationship between me and my boss , there's no hate nor beef to it .

Decided it was time to leave due to army commitments and cause i wanna relax my mth away b4 i hit the shores of pulau tekong.

Something big did happen , Lionel told me something today ....

Can u guys guess it ??? Its something i really dread to hear though , tats to know tat i have another friend who likes YW ...

As much as i like her , if i ever do have to make a decision to gf or my friend , i'll choose my friends , dont really know why but tats jus how i am , i'll rather have my friends then lose them over a girl...

I am really upset and tat moment but i'm pretty much ok the next cause me and lionel actually talked abt it haha , it was quite fun to talk to him abt YW ... His true abt YW's qualities , she's pretty much the type of girl tat u cant get in the market now , although my love ones in church also posseses those qualities.

Well , i complained to Dajie Da and best friend again hehe... my lovely listening ears , dajie says to let god handle this matter, if she's mine , she will be ... I believe so , best friend as usual though knowing tat i would not move on has asked me to move on for the 1000 time...

Well, at times i wonder , do i need a gf ??? Why do i make myself go through so much misery at times ??? Why is it tat i'll never let go of her ??? Is she really tat special ???

My answers for those questions are i really dont know , she makes me flutter everytime i see her even till now .

But of course at the same time , i dont wan a relationship now , i probably cant take it now , i wanna concentrate on my army !!! It could be my career u know . hehe

Well for diya , i'm sure ur mum has her good intentions and like u said she is being practical , i say follow ur dream , i had my dreams taken away from me the very moment i fractured my leg , so go for it yeah !!!

On a side note , DIYA , UR NEW HAIR ROX !!!! HAHA , STUNNING AND I LIKE IT .... Should i go do something abt my hair jus b4 NS ??? Suggestions are very much welcomed !!!!

I'm gonna be 21 this yr

Hmm... i wish i could have this things for my birthday ....
1. An electric guitar
2. A Honda Jazz
3. A lovely gf ( someone who loves me for who i am )
4. A Big Big Birthday cake ( so i can smash frances with it )
5. To spend it with my dearest ESSR ( tat includes best friend if she can come back for me )

jus kidding on the last one hehe ...

Time to let go and let god !!!!

hmm...

24Th April 2006 ....

Today was like any normal working day , got to far east 2 mins late haha ....

chatted the afternoon away with Aunty Esther and best fren

I thought of someone at tat instant , was wonderin wat tat person was doin though ... Never really happened b4 ...

Went on with my work and continued to push for sales, sales has not been good this 2 mths , dont really know why though.

While on my way home , i had a long hard thought to why would tat person suddenly appear in my head ... haha , still dont know why .

Shared with Dajie Da jus 15 mins ago hehe , well , cant really come to an answer too haha .

On a side note , goin back to Sat's msg

Kevin asked who do we imitate or who is our role model ??

My answer was very clear when tat question was popped haha !!!

ITS STEVIE G !!!! THE PFA PLAYER OF THE YR for 05/06




I dream of playing with so much zest and commitment someday haha ...

tats all for today

=)

Lessons ...

Ever Wondered why things happen ???

PPL always say things happen for a reason , lessons to learn through those events , be it good or bad , there are always things to learn from .

But i really wonder wat do i learn from my lessons in life ???

I feel tat i've not learnt much from those lessons instead i've seen the ugliness of humans

I thank god for the ppl who are helping me and praying for me all the time

I only wish i'll always come out strong from all this endeavours and be able to live the life tat god has planned for me

All for the glory of god ....

Trainin begins !!!

I started my trainin for my stamina today , its getting lousier and lousier !!!!


But my trainin was cut short due to the CRAZY rain .... I was running in the rain .... I ran till a point tat i cant take it anymore cause it was so cold and i was alone too , maybe tats why i didnt finish my usual routine.

I'm the kind of person who cant stand being alone , makes me feel weak at times cause i lack competition i guess . Nah , i need company cause i enjoy spending time with frens , i love to talk , i love to chill and jus let time pass by with a few frens sipping on a hot beverage.

Hehe .... I think i'm really crazy to run in the rain , cause i know i am getting sick soon haha ... i was keeping my head down so i wont be the tallest thing ard for mr lightning to strike.

Haha , Gosh i was viewing Diya's blog jus now , haha , i was stunned by her pics hehe , lol , not tat i didnt believe she was girly but i've never seen her look so Nue Ren since i knew her when we were primary 2 !!!!

Wat a big big change !!!

I'll change too !!!

IN 45 more days !!!!!

=)

Memories...

Had sometime today to look back at how my life was for these few yrs

In terms of spirituality , it dropped big time , i was not regular for church cause of work , really didnt wanted to attend church cause of certain reasons , clashes with ppl , stuck at work , many many reasons are coming up in my mind now ...

But i thank god for alot of ppl tat he placed in my life , while the devil was at his work , ESSR was there to bring me back , I thank god for my best friend Melanie , Diya , Nana , Leb , Dajies Franny and Yilin , Esther and Yizhen. PPL who have been there to pull me through my toughest times. I love them to the max. Thanks for listenin to my every complain and thanks for sitting through all my whinnin sessions.

I also thought abt her .... I looked back on alot of the times tat we had together , little things like smsin each other to remind each other not to be late , to walking her to school every monday morning , to having feelings for her ... I do hope one day it will be the like how it used to be but for now , i jus wan to enjoy my company with the lovely ppl tat god has placed in my life

Lovely ppl includes Gail , Ashley , Daniel , Bee Wei , Jeremy , Sufian , Chris , Alan , Algene , Jonny Wong , the New Floods , cheryl cheong , the list just goes on ...

53 more days ....

53 more days and i'm goin to report for duty at Pulau Tekong ....

I dont dread tat day

I'm looking forward to it infact

Time to lose weight and get fit again

Time to get back like old times

I wonder how i would look being bald

My only worry left b4 i enter the army is still her ...

Hmmz....

Time to let go and let god take over

I hope u'll wait for the 2yrs u said u'll give me

My Quest to become a better man will start 53 days from now !!!

I'm in a mess

Today is the worst day i ever had !!!!

I'm blamed for everything tat i did , things tat are not my fault , i have to shoulder the blame , i have to take shit from ppl , i have to face the fact tat my grandmother lied to me , i have to face the fact tat she is still holding to to something tat has passed so long ago and not giving me a chance to explain and prove things to her .

My mum blamed me for everything today , everything tat my brother and dad did to piss my mum off was vented on me , so wat did i do , i screamed at my mum !!!! I've not done tat for a really really really long time , i really wanted to punch something so badly but cant find anything ard my room to do so.

Then my grandmother who promised me a sum of money decided to give me 1/4 of the promised amt , i expected so much from her and now am thinkin where am i suppose to find the remainin amt to fund my trip , take note here , i didnt ask for it , she offered to pay for it . Everything tats planned out nicely with tat budget is now in jeopardy because i dont have enough .

Then i was labeled a pang seh kia !!! Plz , try waking up at 6.30 every sunday morning and then gotta wait for ur frends till 4 !!! untill they are done with their tv program then they would come meet u , if u were me would u wait anot !!!

Then comes to Ms Wong , Why are u always like tat , is it not possible to look at our present situation with another prespective ? Why mus u always be using tat same excuse ? Would u not let me explain myself and prove myself to u ? You always say u dont know how to answer my qns , cause u dont know the ans urself , have u ever thought why u dont know the answer ?

Wat a day !!!! haiz

My Ideal Type of Girl

I jus finished some online quiz , its actually on the type of girl tat suits ISAAC XU YANQUAN !!!!

I have to say i really enjoy such things cause they really tell me wat i'm looking for in most aspects of life . Its pretty accurate to a certain extent too ... Here's wat the end result to tat type of girl test

Your type is the girl next door

Cute, fun, and sweet, your ideal girl is just a stone's throw away - she's the girl next door. She's Sandra Bullock, Billie Piper, and Meg Ryan all rolled up into one. Naturally pretty rather than glamorous, she's unpretentious and generous. She loves animals and children, and is great with both. You're attracted to her strong values and traditional ways. Although she demands great respect, she's not particularly high-maintenance. Her ideal date is more likely to be dinner and a film than heading out for a night on the town. She's careful yet spontaneous - a bit of the guy's girl, a bit of a cover girl (the nice kind), and just a hint of the hippie chick. But she's got an appeal that's all her own, which is why you can't stay away. Her winning smile, bright eyes, and loving nature make you want to hold on tight and never let go.

It really fits wat i saw in her !!! Gosh , ACCURATE !!!!!

MIKLIO STORE !!!!

Just had afew super late nights again , watching the champions league , playing soccer and getting caught by the police at pei kio ( near shawn's place ) , having supper at al ameen with jevin , alan and hendi .

This are the things tat i do to try and get her off my mind ... Seemed to have work initially but ...
Haha , guess tats how it is , Well , i cant get her off my mind at all , its even harder after i've been waiting and hanging on to those memories together .

Stoning is a pretty good thing to kill time though , especially when in my shoes , u gotta face a store without any walk in customers most of the day ... BUT my sales for the store still pretty satisfactory.

Ah .... she's coming back tml , hope she had fun ! Hope she remembers to buy me something haha .... nah ... i dont think she will remember me la ... Aint tat important in her life ...

I've been working for my boss for 1 yr 3 to 4 mths , tats a really long time man , I love my job , its my hobby actually ... Its not really working , its for leisure infact ... I've grown with the store during this 1yr 3 to 4 mths period , I've seen how far east plaza evolved !!! Its not doin far east any good to be serious !!! The rents are goin up man , hopefully it does not affect my boss =) .

As army draws closer day by day , for those who dont know , I'm entering the army on the 2nd of June , 1 day after her birthday ... I could actually start a count dwn to my time in Miklio , I should be leaving the store during the start of may , i need some time off to have fun

My reputation being The Friendly Shop Assistant will live on hopefully after the new guy who is goin to take of miklio store !!! Tat Title was given to me by my dear frend KURT !!!! His away in HK now , shopping at BusyWorks and UC , hope he gets me my Wtaps Beanie !!!

Tats all ...

给我你的爱

Its a really nice song by a new singer called TANK , Was stuck on the song for a week !!! haha , enjoy ....



等待一点一滴　你对我感到安心
感觉朋友关系　有了新的默契

便利商店里　谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西　只握在　喜欢的人手上

给我你的爱　让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱　手拉着手　不放开
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里　有我的拥抱

我的 最大幸福　是发现了我爱你
灵魂 有了意义　用每一天 珍惜

便利商店里　谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西　只握在喜欢的人手上

给我你的爱　让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱　手拉着手不放开
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里　有我的拥抱

雨和天空也有　相爱的可能
望着你的微笑　情不自禁

给我你的爱　让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱　手拉着手不放开
就算地球毁灭　来不及流泪
只愿你的记忆里　有我的拥抱
有我的拥抱
给我你的爱爱 给我你的爱爱
给我你的爱爱

The Date Has Been Decided !!!!

Hi guys ....

I've got something to tell everyone of you !!!!!

I got this off the Mindef webby....

Your enlistment date is on 02-Jun-2006. Your reporting unit is TRAINING LIST BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 1.

=)