Why ???

Why is it tat problems jus come one after another ???

I'm so sick of it ...

Ppl say its abt taking it in ur stride , some say pray and let go do the rest ...

But wat if either ways dont work ...

Is bottling things up in my heart good for me ??? There is so much i wanna tell her ... but i dont know if i should ... For all i know she might jus get offended and then comes a quarrel ...

I desperately wan time alone with her , but time is so scarce ... Its not something i have and i so want it bad ...

While walking away from her car today ... i was tearing away ... i jus knew she could not make it back to be with me after fetching her mum ... Its so hard to jus see her for tat hr or tat limited amt of mins ... Army has to come in and bring me to brunei on Jan 2nd 2007 for 10 days for socjoc ...

Knowing SOA is not like signals where things are really slack , i probably would not be able to see her for this coming week unless she is willing to give up some of her time for me ... My bookout day seems like a lousy sunday mornin ... a sat morning would be a miracle ...

This week will be a really depressing week ... its not even started and i'm already feeling it and am super affected by it ...

Everyday's a learning experience ... i'm still learning how to graps limited time frame and eagerness to see her ...

AM I IMPORTANT TO ANYONE !!!! or for the instance u WONG YI WEN !!!!!!

i wish i could jus sleep all my troubles away ...

Depressed ...

Until then ...

The journey ends here ...

Days in Alpha wing officially ends here ... it all started on 18th of sep 2006 and after 3 long mths ... it finally comes to an end today 23rd Dec 2006... I'll move on to School of Armour to continue my trainin as an officer of the nation ...

Its really saddenin and really demoralising to let go of ppl whom have been there through thick and thin with u ... regardless how lousy and weak u are ... No one is being despised in Platoon 3 ... everyone is the same ... I wanna say tat my buddies in ocs have been the first few real friends i've ever met ... This ppl are real and true towards u ... sincere and never hiding any hidden agendas ...

i love my friends and u guys will always have a place in my heart !!!!

Thank u guys so so much for making my trip in ocs such a pleasent one =)

My Section !!!!! The happiest section in platoon 3 !!!!


My Buddy and me !!!!


values and goals tat section 3 set for each other to achieve !!!



Me and Francis !!! we looked like we are out to knock dwn some juniors !!! =P



The guys love to chill in my room !!!



Me and Bevy !!! haha ... bevan lookin really hot yeah haha !!!


My platoon pic taken during social night !!!!


Armour Buddies !!!


I'm a sissy boy !!!


Relaxing after a long long day of hard work in ocs !!! ICE CREAM !!!


Until then ...

Long week end ...

This week is by far one of my favourite weeks of OCS ....

I'm jus glad this went well in camp for this week , alot of worries abt whether Alpha will bookout on Sat night after 63/06 OCT's commissionin parade ... MG live firing , Demo Live firing !!! Ippt !!! Route march !!!

It was a really tiring week to be serious ... the week started out really really crappy , knowing tat now her mum is not agreein to let her attend social night with me .. tat SUCKS !!! I dont really know how she feels , but when i heard the news , i'm stunned and speechless ... i cant believe my luck , the one and only girl tat means the world to me may not be attending my social night with me .. haiz ... oh well ... i was thinking Take 3 extra and forget abt it ...

Sometimes i dont know if she feels the things i feel ... i may seem ok to her requests but deep dwn i'm really not feeling fine abt it ... i give in , i try to understand without an complaints , maybe abit of whinin tats all =) but its all good ... i know her difficulties so i give ...

I would rather i give in and let her be happy ... As long as she's smillin , i'll be happy too =)

Wed was IPPT , i scored my first silver cause of my jumping , this silver serious was delayed for a really really long time man ..cant believe i took so long to achieve this silver... oh well the came sat !!! IPPT again !!! Guess wat !!! I SCORED GOLD !!! MUHAHAHA ... I'm good !!! no la .. alot of sweat and blood has been put into achieving this gold .. i'm jus glad no more ippt for me untill proterm ...

i've got a pressie for wen , Today 10 of december is actually a pretty significant day ... Kinda like a 3 mth annivesary ... jus too bad she is still tired and refuses to leave her place ... so cant pass it to her , SUCK THUMB lor .. no choice ...

I havent really had time with her like the last few mths , we havent really spent time together like how i wished we could ... its getting hard for me ... of course for her too ... I was tellin sylvyn this morning when we had breakfast tat she actually wish i dont call her tat much and dont send tat much sms to her cause she says if i send too much , if i go away for a long period both will find it hard to get by those days without one another ... Is tat true ??? i dont relaly know .. vyn was saying i spend as much time as i can with her ... i dont know ... she cant give me her time as much anyway ... Work is like an obligation to her ... No choice .. she's paid to do it ... suck thumb also .. dont wanna do also cannot ... pretty much the same for me in the army , i dont have a choice as well .. suck thumb ...

The days are really hard ... no wonder ppl say Ns is the most trying period of a relationship ... Hmm ... i so agree ... I wont give up though ... I wont let go ... I wonder if she feels the same too ???

Thank god i got leave to clear this few weeks , tml off , tuesday off but gotta return back to camp on tuesday night at 22.30 ... hopefully by then her dress and my clothing for social night is settled already ... pray tat she can go with me ... cause i really dont wanna go with someone else ... no offence to ashley who has offered to help me out if she cant make it ...

Quany can only pray and if shit happens , suck thumb and take it in my stride

2 weeks long of tiredness and sickness

Its been a really really long week , million of things happened over this 2 week , sweet things , bad things and jus loads and loads of crap ...

I was appointed CPC for Alpha platoon 3 , jus in case u guys dont know wat is cpc , is Cadet Platoon Commander ... To be serious i was not expecting such responsibility handed over to me , Lta Haniff was like " Isaac , why are u so stunned , should have saw it coming man !!! "

Oh well , since i got appointed , i've been complainin to Yiwen abt how much i dont like responsibilities , how much i hated to enforce things onto my peers jus to make sure we dont get FCUK bt the instructors , so far so good i guess , havent kena much shit from the instructors for the past 2 weeks , 2 more weeks to go , commander's parade coming already , means i get to hold the sword !!! MUHAHAHA ... feels like a commissionin parade ...

Then came the week ends , Yiwen met grandma and uncle at their place , dont really know how she does it but their impression of her was like WOW ... never seen my granny like someone so fast b4 , gotta hand it to her la , her smile wins a million hearts ... Then went on with alot of things and all ... the weekend jus felt really good ...

Ex Scorpion King next up ... Split into 2 parts , Ex Zebra and Ex Spade , Ex Zebra i was sect Com for section 3 , boy it was fun !!! Led by Lta Delson ,haha, Fire Movement up the knoll was the most Siong thing i ever did so far then incorporated SKM , lagi taxing man ... i hurt myself in the process , while diving to my cover , my knee hit a tree root , OUCH ... but i tahan ... the rain was making things really bad especially for my health and all ... i had a really bad migrain during 1st half of spade , once i'm done with shellscrape , i collapsed on the floor ... never passed out b4 , next thing i knew i was in the training shack waiting to visit the medical centre ...

I'm super haggard now , super lots of outbreak , super tired ...

Wenny is goin through some hard times with her mum , mummy does not approve somethings in life ... its goin to be hard ... but hang in there dear , i'm with u =) remember i wont let u go !!! So dont u dare let go ...
My Rank !!!! ( CPC Platoon 3 )


Me and little Rae-ann ( She looks stunned )


Look how haggard and tired i am


The sweetest picture we took so far ( its both our favourite )


Untill then ...