My world came crashing dwn ... Is it all over ??

Dwn comes my world , Pointless in living a life tats right anyway ... I've kept myself away from things tat will distract me from having a proper relationship with her and i've not done things tat will hinder my progress in School of Armour ...

Are all this things worthwhile ??? Keeping myself right , doin the right thing when no one's watching , Wat do i gain in return ??? Misery and more misery ....

I asked her today

Honestly dear , do u treasure me at all , do the times we share ever mean anything to u ...

She said :

I Did , Initially . Then things jus didnt turn out as i thought it should. So i'm also super unsure of wat i wan. I thought i knew wat i want , Turns out i was wrong , plus with all my family and work problems , i cant take it all... i Jus cant ...

I'm depressed ... extremely depressed , my life is goin dwn , 2 things mean the world to me , my mum and her , either one tat goes dwn brings me dwn to rock bottom ...

Wat can i do ??? maybe i should jus end it all right now ??? No more pain ...

I dont know how much pain can i take , i dont know how much longer b4 i really do something foolish ....

最重要的小事

我走过动荡日子
追过梦的放肆
穿过多少生死
却假装若无其事
穿过半个城市
只想看你样子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事

我就算壮烈前世
征服滚滚乱世
万人为我写诗
而幸福却是此时
静静帮你提著
哈罗凯蒂袋子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事
最重要的事

你笑得像个孩子
每个平凡小事
变成永恒故事

Dear ... no matter wat happens in ur life ... they are all impt to me ... i'll always be here , a phone call away , my address is still the same ... if it means to give up everything i have for u , i jolly will do it to see u smile ...

I'm really sorry i've not been able to be there when u need me ...

Sorry ...

Brunei Bound ...

After a week in School Of Armour ... time for Socjot ... My week in camp was pretty ok haha ... thought would have been worst .. god pulled me through haha ...

While in camp ... Yiwen has been really really supportive ... always encouragin me ... oh well behind every successive man is a lovely women ... haha .. she's my lovely dear girl ...

Today i'm leaving for brunei ... had the whole morning and half of e afternoon with her ... my best time with her ever ... loving every single sec with her ...

She jus makes my days of hardwork all worthwhile as i push towards my bookout and my return from brunei on the 11th of jan ...

She said I LOVE U to me today haha ... oh well .. first time la ... seldom she says all this ...

Oh well ... I love u too Wong yiwen ...

Reporting time 23:59 , flight time ard 2 plus in the morning ... will reach brunei ard 4 plus ... will be last to reach lakuin camp cause i'm the luggage party ...

Time to sleep liaoz ...