What goes ard comes ard ...

On the eve of section field camp and lots of more training to come ... More weekends burnt ... haha ... oh well i shall update my blog b4 alls too late...

I'm actually surprised tat i could come home this weekend cause initially i was suppose to have guard duty ... guess they knew i was depressed so yeah ...

Over this 1 mth , lotsa shit happened in my life ...been really down ... been really depressed ... affected literally everything revolving my life ... My health became really bad ... getting injured during training , falling sick ... puffy eyes due to crying ... Training wise , i was deemed too outspoken and seem to look like i wanna rebel against the instructors though seriously never had tat intention ... jus stating some reasonable facts which were not really well recieved by them ...

I know my buddies are out there worrying abt me and my well being ... dont worry ... I may be dwn ... but i'm still the same ... i picked myself up from it once ... i'll try to do it again ... As much as i know it really pains and hurts me to know i've lost the one thing in this world tat means everything to me ... i'll look on the bright side ... Someone better will come and treat her well ...
Losing her made me realise one thing , sometimes giving ur all isnt really enough ... oh well ...

Went out with my buddies in camp last night for some lan gaming ... CS , Quake , half life ... u name it , we played it haha ... Havent done tat in ages ... Sure feels good doin it ...

3 mths 3 weeks more to commissionin ... 6 more weeks to ROC ... i cant wait for it ... i wanna look proud on tat parade sqr ...

Will i be there ??? Will ESSR be there to see me commission ??? Will My special someone be there ???

Questions and Answers tat i would love to find out when tat day comes along ...

Learning to pick oneself up

Its been a mth since we split ... Am i recovering from it ???

I guess i'm feeling slightly better not cause i dont like her anymore ... Just beginnin to not think so much ... She's still on my mind ... Most of the time ... when i look back at the times we shared together ... they were probably one of the best moments in life for me ... its amazing how i had her and lost her .... Things happened so sudden ...

At times i feel really cheated ... All the efforts tat i've placed into this relationship went dwn the drain ... I guess she's got her own reasons for hurting me ... Its not easy to do it but she seems to do it with ease ...

maybe its really for the better for both of us ... If its ur will god , bring us back together when the time is right again ...

Ppl whom have been concern abt me ... thank u for the care and concern ... jus let me learn to pick myself up from this very heart breaking event ... I'll stand up again ... hopefully soon ...

I hope things are really getting better for her now ... dont know how she's doin now ... I'm being ignored and she probably even blocked me on msn ... so yeah ... if she sees this ... i pray daily tat u'll get better each day ... i'm sure god will bring ur family through all this crap ... Dont forget the verse tat kept u goin when we had each other ... it still applies now ...

CNY ... something i look forward every yr ... long break from Army ... Alittle increment for my mthly expenses ... booked out on friday morning ... went shopping with the guys from armour otw ... had fun before joining franny and gang at sakae for dinner and lou hei ...

Well for today ... met up my alpha buddies in town ... really beena long time since i saw them and it really feels great to see them again ... really really miss them alot ...

We'll catch up again !!!!!!

ABOVE BEYONG AS ONE !!!!

Time to try and pick myself up

Dear all ... i know u guys have been worried abt me and my well-being

Dont worry ... i'm still hanging on to watever tats left in me ... Though physically i'm really trashed , at points in life almost a gone fark ... i'm still hanging on , suffered alot of injuries during training .

Though my heart is really really broken into pieces ... I've never been so disappointed in something b4 , it will take a long time for me to recover but yeah ... time will heal i hope ...

3 weeks of misery will start to come to an end ... its really hard to let her go and even though i dont to , i'll jus have to let go this time rnd if tats wat really means to be happy for her ...

I only pray tat if she's the one for me she'll be mine in future ....

Ppl say if u bring someone for OCS social night and then if u bring the same person for Commissionin ball , then u know she's the one who will spent the rest of ur life with ...

i brought Ms wong to Social Night , lets see now wat god has planned for both me and her ... we prayed abt it together b4 we ended our relationship ...

Dear lord if its ur will ... bring us back together again ... else let her new special someone treat her like a princess ...

Yiwen ... I will always remember those days when u were in my arms ...

I love u sweetie ...

O V E R ....

Its over ... not tat i wasnt expecting it to come , jus cant believe it actually happened when all things were looking fine ...

Plz do not tell me to let go cause i don't intend to , Plz do not tell me that i've got alot ahead for me and my future cause i've lost my motivation in life to do well ...

Dont tell me to brace up cause i feel cheated ...

I know it was not gonna be easy but i held on to tight until i started feeling miserable jus because i wanted to be there with her whenever she needs me ... eventually i got hurt again ...

Plz dont ask me to take care cause ppl dont know how deep this wound is ...

I try and given my best for every little thing tat has come across my path ... in the end wat do i get back in return , whole load of misery and pain ....

Take me away from all this god , plz !!!!

If i ever do leave this world ...

This are wats left of me to u dear

Tats i love u Wong Yi wen ....