Disappointed ...

Sometimes i wonder if parents are a way to test your patience and remind you to Never be like them.

I find certain things extremely stupid especially when parents and even grandparents manipulate the status on being Filial ... What does it mean to be filial ? Does it mean if i buy you a meal means i'm filial ? Does it mean i send you to a place which is just 15 min to 30 min bus ride means i'm filial ?

On Christmas day, today, 25/12/09 ... i was faced with this issue and was labelled unfilial by my grandmother and was threatened by my very own mother that since i do not want to send them to place which they are going, she will not pay my school fees ...

I take threats very seriously and to be threatened over a stupid issue as such is making my blood boil ... I'm pissed at how my mother would always bring Geraldine into the picture about sending her home too often but its perfectly fine to send her friends all the way back or even send her friend's kid back ...

The car is meant to serve ppl ... True and fair enough ... it did serve its purpose ... But why only recognise that i only use it for Geraldine ? How about the other ppl whom have benefited from the car ?

Just because i'm not working now , does not mean i can be threatened using money as a subject ...

Its sad to see how my mother has stooped to such a low level and still thinks she is correct ...

Its only 2 more days effectively to camp and now i've lost my 5k for school fees ...

I'm not in the mood for anymore screw ups ...

Looks like school fees are going to be a headache ...

Thankful ...

Its been awhile since i have actively updated this blogspot.

Its been 2 weeks since i've stopped working and to be honest ... I'm loving this life =)

Its great to have time to do the things which i want to do with no restrictions

So many things which i feel i have to thank god for this week ....

The list just goes on and on ...

Officially Missing You ...

Unashamed ...

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

Try - Asher Book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
but I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till I'm gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
but I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

Decisions which i really have to make ...

As i delay my decision to tender, i'm honestly feeling very stressed about my studies and my well-being in general.

I try to make myself think that i can handle various things all at one time but to be honest i'm really just feeling the strain of having to work and study at the same time.

I'm suffering from over-loading of work and school work , consistently worried about missing datelines for school assignments while i attempt to manage the various datelines at work as well.

I'm really stressed ...

But i've come to a decision with myself ...

i shall not wait any longer ...

24th Sept would be my 1 yr in the company

i think it shall be my last too ...

God of My Forever ...

God of my youth I remember
your call on my life took me o'er
your luv has seen me through all my days
I stand here by your grace
On this altar I've written my life
Tells of a story I have with you my Lord
I want the world to know


God of my forever
And forever I'm with you
My life is saved with a price
yourr sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest hOnor will always be
To serve my Lord and King


God of my all I've surrendered
My heart finds its rest in your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my Love for you has grown
Nothing matters when you're here with me
In the end just to hear you say "Well done"
Bowing before your throne